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It’s Unpredictable & Messy but it is full of God’s Blessings!
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Jul 3, 2023
Our Rainbow Baby's 1st Birthday!
On June 24th we got to celebrate our Josie's 1st Birthday! Our Sweet Rainbow baby! Where did the year go??
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Jun 14, 2023
Grief Is A Tunnel, Not A Cave
Last week my mom called me while I was at home with Josie and said "The desert house is open this weekend! You guys should go"! I called JD
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Feb 23, 2022
Why Me?
It’s taken me some time to come to terms with this. And honestly, some days I still struggle.
Why me? Why did my child have to die?
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Sep 2, 2021
When All Hope Seems Lost
It’s so easy to lose Hope. I know I’ve struggled with it – especially this last year.
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Aug 11, 2021
A Lost Future
In all the feels over here seeing mamas post pictures of their kids either going back to school or reaching a certain age. It reminds me how
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Jul 11, 2021
I Am Still So Proud Of My Birth Story
Lately I’ve really had birth stories on my heart. I’ve been thinking about my own birth story a lot but I’ve also just been thinking about a
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Jun 13, 2021
Woman in Waiting
I’ve been trying hard this last year to be open about my journey through grief and all that I’ve learned (and am still learning)
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Apr 2, 2021
Silent Saturday
Yesterday was Good Friday. A day to honor and recognize the death of Jesus on the cross. To really bask in the wonder of what he went
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Mar 18, 2021
Still Walking
I snapped this photo last week when I was walking Benji boy. While I was walking I ran into a young mom pushing a stroller with her daughter
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Feb 17, 2021
Doctor's Appointment
Today I walked into a doctors office by myself. It may seem like a simple task, but for me – walking back into a doctors office is
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Jan 8, 2021
9 Months
For 9 months you lived inside me. I felt you roll around, kick, and hiccup.
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Jan 8, 2021
8 Months in Heaven
8 months without you tomorrow. How can it be 8 months? Some days it feels like 8 years and other days it feels like just yesterday.
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Nov 17, 2020
Her Story Isn't Over
A couple weeks before Emma was born I decided that I wanted to be intentional with making a baby book for her.
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Nov 17, 2020
I Will Shall Not Be Shaken
A couple months before Emma was born I bought her this personalized swaddle with her name all over it.
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Nov 17, 2020
Letter to Emma at 6 months
Today you would be six months old. Today I’ve survived half a year without you.
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Nov 17, 2020
The Color Purple
My mom and I went to hobby lobby this week where I bought this wreath for our front door. Isn’t it beautiful? The colors remind me of Emma!
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Nov 17, 2020
For this I find Joy
I’ll be honest… I’ve been struggling with all sorts of emotions – anger, sadness, jealousy, anxiety, fear, and the list goes on.
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