A Lost Future

In all the feels over here seeing mamas post pictures of their kids either going back to school or reaching a certain age. It reminds me how I’ll never get to see that with Emma.

When you lose a baby you don’t just lose your present with them… you lose your future with them too. Every milestone, every special event, every birthday. When I lost Emma I also lost seeing her grow up. Seeing her take her first steps or saying her first words. Seeing her first day of school. Seeing her ride her first bike. Seeing her meet her new siblings. Seeing her drive for the first time. Seeing her graduate. Seeing her go to prom. Seeing her daddy walk her down the aisle. Seeing her have children of her own.

When I lost Emma I lost my future with her too – and that’s heartbreaking. But that doesn’t mean I can’t talk about what milestones she would be reaching now…

So this is a picture of my baby. She would be 16 months now. She would be my little walker and she would be my little talker. I miss her like crazy. I miss everything she would be – everything she should be.

Loss mamas – How old would your babe be today? I know you miss him/her so much… and since not many people ask, I thought I would💜

Also, this is actually a sketched copy of a real picture we had taken of Emma. Didn’t the artist do an amazing job?!