Brooklyn's Story

On November 20, 2022 my husband and I discovered we were pregnant with our second child. We were so excited to be parents of two we could hardly stand it. Our kids are two years and two months apart. We then found out our second baby was a sweet baby girl. Her name Liberty came easy, we wanted to stick with “L” names because our sons name is Lincoln. When we picked her name we began to see it everywhere and I mean everywhere.

I had the most textbook pregnancies with both of my children and carried them both full term. However the last couple days of my pregnancy with my daughter would change everything. I was scheduled for induction Monday, July 17th but woke up Sunday around 3:00AM when I started experiencing consistent contractions. After calling my doctor, we took our son to his grandparents and were off to the hospital.

We were taken back almost immediately once we arrived. I peed in a cup, put on my gown & laid in the bed. Our nurse came to put on the monitor bands around my belly when I noticed her having trouble picking up a heart beat. She tried for a couple of minutes & said she would go get someone to help her. At this point my husband came over to hold my hand. Another women walked in & looking back she kind of rushed in. She hooked me up to an ultrasound machine to properly scan my belly. I saw right away no moving heart. I knew right then something was very wrong.

She looked at me & said I am so sorry. We had an ultrasound tech & two doctors confirm our worst fear. I wept the hardest & most painful cry I’ve ever experienced. We cried, screamed & could barley breathe. When we were finally able to control ourselves we called our parents. I’ll never forget those phone calls, they are burned into my brain forever. Once our family arrived no one could really process what was going on. When it became time for me to give birth to my no longer living baby girl I didn’t think I was strong enough.

When she was born it was apparent what had went wrong. Liberty had two big blood clots in her umbilical cord. We all got to hold & kiss her sweet body.She was 7lbs 3oz & 19 inches long. Looking at her she just looked asleep, like at any moment she could open her eyes…she was perfect. We were able to have her sleep next to us for the night & a few hours the next day. Leaving the hospital without our daughter gutted me like a fish.

No amount of anti-depression or anxiety medication can take the pain of loosing your child. Though sometimes they are truly needed, the Lord God almighty can do things for you & inside of you that nothing else can even compare too. I am still in the early stages of grief & have a long road ahead but I will honor my daughter in every way I possibly can and through that God will get the glory!

Brooklyn has started an Instagram account called “Liberty’s Love” to honor her beautiful daughter Liberty Leigh and to bring support to stillbirth and infant loss survivors.

You can follow her account @libertys.love