March 18, 2022, was my due date! Little did i know, I would loose my son on October 20, 2021, when he was 18 weeks along. I was just remembering my first loss at 9 weeks during the Month of Infant loss/still birth/Miscarriage. I was diagnosed with multiple fibroids even before i got married, by then my gynac never mentioned about serious problems related to it. It was an unplanned pregnancy in 2020, but it only lasted for 9 weeks. I was diagnosed with fibrod growth but still my Gynac asked me to try again for the second time. In July, 2021 I had a home pregnancy test and it turned positive. I couldn’t stop crying and being happy this time cause this was all I wanted. But I didn’t imagine I would loose it again until i was told last minute that my uterus opened up due to my Fibroids growing big and degenerated. I can never get over this trauma, this feeling, and the episode in the labour room. Being given 48 hrs time, where 24 hrs for normal delivery, I was kept in prayers while my Gynac was figuring out how to proceed if I didn’t progress with a normal delivery. I remember being shattered and being treated badly by the nurses as if they were tired of seeing patients. Fibroids cause tremendous unbearable pain and dealing with pregnancy was just a level above. I am alive and healthy today because of my parents, especially mom, who gave me strength to pass this phase. I delivered my son still, he was just fallen on the bed and no one addressed him until the gynac arrived. I wasn’t in shape to even know what had to be done at that time, so I just got one glance of him which I hardly remember now. I named him Miguel Ragnar, one like God who is a warrior. My journey since then has been a roller coaster. Experiencing two losses and dealing with it alone has be
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